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09/11/2005: "My goal in life"
music: BBC: Family Proms in the parkmood: Quite good.
It's more then a week ago that I have written this journal, so it's about time to update it.
You know what the problem is? So much happens in your life and still, as soon as you sit down to write about it, it doesn't seem interesting enough to be put online. Then again, if I would keep on thinking that way, this journal would probably just stay empty.
This does not mean that our life is boring, far from that, it would just not be interesting for anyone else to read about it. Everyone knows what we are about anyway, as life treats everyone the same way. Some people get more luck than others but that's the only difference. All the feelings we have been experiencing in the last week you will have felt once in your lifetime too. Sometimes events can almost take over your day to day life without you actually wanting it to happen.
I myself am still trying to keep my hopes up, although it is difficult sometimes. Angela has been rejected again for a telecomms project and I did not yet find myself a new job. Then again, something quite nice actually happened:
For the first time in my life I made a plan!
It's a bit scary for me to put it online as that basically means you can all slap me if I do not succeed.
Of course by now you are all thinking: 'come on girl, spill the beans! What is your goal?'.
My goal is:
- Sit my Cambridge Exam of Advanced English in June 2006.
- After passing this, start with a TOEFL (Teaching of English as a Foreign Language) course. This course alone will take about 80 hours to complete.
- Start working as a teaching assistant and/or start taking on private students, in other words: making teaching English my profession and earning money with it.
This is a middle- to long term plan which will take at least 2 years and maybe even long to complete. However, it really is something I would like to earn my money with.
The thinking behind this is that I love (and am fascinated by) the English language and I enjoy working with people. As this combines the two I think this is the right thing for me to do. Handy is also that both the CAE and the TOEFL certificate are internationally recognised so I won't be bound to The Netherlands as would be the case with, say, admin certificates.
Unfortunately, as this is a long term plan, I still have to find myself a new job to pay the bills. However, it doesn't really matter to me what kind of job I'll get, as long as it pays enough. That's the good thing about having a goal: I know this is just temporary and that I really want to end up doing something else. Everything in between is then maybe easier to deal with.
I'm toying with the idea of giving myself a sentence or idea and then trying to write my opinion about it in my journal. Especially because this will hopefully give me enough exercise for the CAE 'writing paper'.
You'll see as soon as I post the first 'article' whether or not I am acting on this idea.
Hugs, Jacqueline