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Sunday, October 23rd

Sleeplessness

music: None
mood: Tired

It is now 3:41 in the morning and I just can't sleep. Have been lying awake for what feels like hours, tossing and turning, and finally decided to go out of bed to visit the toilet.
Decided to stay awake a bit longer and write this diary, hoping it will help a bit with getting me back to sleep again.

This even though it is abosolutely freezing! You can feel that it is beginning to get wintry; it is so cold! Don't really know what to say other than that I didn't do half of what I needed to do yesterday and I hate myself for it. That is why I put the alarm at 10 for today...which is very unusual for me as I normally don't even want to hear my alarm at the weekend.
We had a nice evening yesterday, despite our problems, as watched our favorite tv-show on BBC One: Strictly Come Dancing. Celebrities dancing with professional dancers. It is already the third season and it almost gets better every year. It is just a nice program with great music, nice and funny dances, and also the odd horrible one, and an evening of nice entertainment.
We saw in the tv-guide that the Dutch TV apparently also copied the program but the
BBC started with it!

We have been trying Voipbuster as a means of communication yesterday and I have to say that the sound quality at the moment is still quite appalling! Skype is way better quality from computer to landline however, unfortunately, not yet free of charge to either Dutch, English or USA landlines. Voipbuster is and, because we have to push our expenses down even more, we might as well use it and hope the quality will improve.

I am freezing so I will crawl back into bed now and hope I can sleep.

Later...
Angelasgf on 10.23.05 @ 03:54 AM CST [link] [No Comments]

Saturday, October 22nd

An other rejection

music: BBC One
mood: Somewhere halfway

Hiya all,

It has been a while again, for which I apologise. However it is just because either nothing much happens or I get too depressed just thinking about it.

Angela has had a rejection again this week, even after everything looked so promising. She had two interviews with via an agency and everyone was really positive about her. But then the big boss of the company suddenly decided they would have to move people around and a deal was off.
It made me feel really depressed and I cried my eyes out Thursday evening. This because I just don't know when things will start looking up for us again, workwise.
My job ends the 31st of October and I still don't have anything else. On top of that I am still not sure whether I will get unemployment benefit or when I will have an other job. As now things are already difficult they might get much worse even. I am just not sure what is going to happen: will I be able to celebrate my birthday in January (my 30th)? Will I be able to sit my CAE exam in June? Will there still be money for that? Will I ever see Newbury again? I so long for it, but still: there is no money. When will we be able to see Marija again, or our English friends?
I just don't know what will happen or how low this hole is. My feeling is that we are not even so far in it and, on the other hand, it feels like we are already too deep in it.

I am just glad that Angela and I are together. At least that is the main thing in life, I guess. I know money doesn't make you happy, but it does help with having less problems.

Well, that's it for now.

I'll write something more later.

Jacqueline

Angelasgf on 10.22.05 @ 11:49 PM CST [link] [No Comments]