Well, today we have received news which you never want to have. No matter how old your parents are. A couple of days ago I already wrote that it didn't go well with Angela's dad... Today they had a talk with a doctor at the hospital, after having had a CT scan yesterday.
Basically, the outcome was not good: he's got bowel cancer with the liver also invested big time. So operation is of no use anymore, they will probably do chemo, but I don't think that's sure yet.

So yes, basically, you are confronted quite hard with the fact that people really aren't going to life forever. It could take some time, it could go quite fast, but at least you know it's going to come. Quicker then you might have hoped or thought. What happens now? Basically everone will have to deal with it.

There's stuff dad still wants to do. But also arranging things, maybe giving things away, what to do with the house, what to tell to who and things like that. Angela said that some tears have been shed during the talk, which I can totally understand. But when we were at dad's tonight we talked about it quite matter of factly. Also Angela feel shit, but doesn't show it. I guess that's just her. She'll find a way of dealing with it and I just hope that she'll let me in. Hopefully I will be able to see it when she needs me. As she's introvert it's always difficult with her. And they are very much down too earth, not too much emotions, at least not at the surface.

I can only be there for her. And I hope I'll manage. Everyone now needs time to let it sink in. Everyone needs to adjust.

What else can I say than that it's gonna be difficult for everyone involved. I'll keep you all posted.

Hugs, Jacqueline

PS; We've just watched a documentary on the BBC about the Oklahoma Bombing. It was interesting, but we missed some facts. For example that what they showed at the end was the monument which now stands at the spot where the Alfred P. Murray building stood. This was before it was bombed. If you want to know more about this, please visit the America pictures in my gallery. The first couple of pictures are from the Oklahoma memorial.